“We know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.” — Romans 8:28 MEV
We talked about this verse yesterday — how not everything that happens has a purpose, but how going through a trial or tragedy can actually work to your good because it forces you to look for God (whose love can then get in and overwhelm you.)
But even so, you can’t quote this verse in a light-hearted or Pollyanna way (or if you do, you’re still not getting it).
Because there’s very little of that when you’re in the middle of the tragedy. There is more of sitting in silence and darkness with your life’s blood slowly dripping out your slit wrists, and feeling the presence of the Crucified slip into the seat beside you, press his wounded side against you, wrap his arms around you, and hold you with his nail scarred hands.
It’s not the answer to your prayer that you want that fixes you up and makes you happy, but instead, it’s an acknowledgment that the one who loves you understands your suffering because he, too, suffered. In the moment, it’s some comfort, but in the aftermath, it’s glorious. If you retain this closeness, and this sense of God’s overwhelming understanding of and love for you, it will become the foundation of a life that is lived here and now in heaven.
It will become a life more filled with love and joy than you could ever have imagined in the middle of your tragedy. And then — what can it be but good? You have lived through your own death, what in the world threaten you now? You are rooted and grounded in love. And that’s eternal. You will get a perspective on life that truly does make every day a gift.
The scars of the past are ever present. Even Jesus had them in his resurrection body. Why? I think to show you that you won’t forget the pain of your tragedy — It will shape you, especially if it were the beginning of a new walk with God. You will be healed, this I know, but you won’t be the same.